two sided road.

every word you say confuses me.

you say you miss me but you're with someone?

what do i do? 

do you mean it as friend or do you mean it as more.

if you mean it as i friend i miss you as well, if you mean it as more...

i'm not sure what to say.

i like you a lot but i don't want to be with someone that can't figure out what they want.

i may possible could love you, but i think maybe we should be friends.

than again maybe we should be more...

you put confusion into my head more then anyone has before.

i wish i could read you, then maybe i would know what exactly you're trying to say.

as for now i will stay confused until you finally tell me exactly how you feel.

you already know how i feel, but that don't matter unless you feel the same.

being with someone is a two sided street.

if one of the people don't know what they want, that street can become complicated and not two sided anymore.

i've had that happen before and i don't want that again. 

so until your ready i will walk another road and maybe one day you'll walk down the same road with me.

-Sharon June

untitled.

here's to the broken hearted, to the sad endings, the painful breakups,and the hard regrets.

we all love you even though no matter how much we deny we do, we always will.

it's like as if we love the the pain, as if it's our kryptonite and we're superman.

we can't help but to love, and crave it.

we all just need to realize that you're no good for us and never will be, so we can learn from our mistakes.

so we can realize we need to love ourselves before we can every love another.

the hardest part of that is learning to see ourselves like others that love us do.

if only we knew how then we could break the spell to all this pain, and heartache.

but if only... if only...

-Sharon June

this is exactly how i feel about love. that if we don't know how to love ourselves than we'll never be able to love another not only that but if we could see ourselves the way other people do it would be so much easier to fall in love and you know mabye thats a good thing... idk. but i do know the hardest part of being in love is being in love with someone that isn't in love back, but will always hold yerr heart. it's never easy. and never will be... 

untitled.

watching you go isn't an easy thing to do.

even though i know it's not forever.

i fear it could be.

that you'll never come back.

i shouldn't fear that but it's hard not to when every other time, you've walked out and you don't come back.

i love you so much and if you were to walk about again i wouldn't know what to do.

sitting in my window missing you already when you just barely left.

i know it's not like we're broken up, you're just moving out. 

but it's still hard. 

i can barley sleep without you.

i don't even want to breathe without you let alone not be by you.

waking up to you not being there is hard.

rolling over in the middle of the night and not feeling you there kills me.

i miss you baby.

and i hope your not walking out for good.

i just hope that you come back even though we can't live together.

trust me i hate this as much as you do, well as much as i think you do. 

i'm going to try to sleep now, but without you here it's going to be hard...

without you holding me at night, without you to wake up to in the morning to. 

but who knows this might help our relationship grow. 

i really hope it does. 

well goodnight babe wherever you are i hope you know i love you and wish you were here tonight.

-Sharon June.

proved wrong...

i guess i was wrong about you loving me as much as i love you.

i thought you were the one that i was going to grow old with...

you were the one that made me feel on top of the world the one that could make me smile no matter what..

i guess not no more.

i guess i've seen your true colors. 

i guess all along it was all a game to you.

i hope you know that you have broken my heart for the last time that you have destroyed me once again.

i wish i could hate you, i wish i could fix this...

it sucks to know the one that holds my heart doesn't want it... 

the one that i built my bridge around tore it down.

i wish you loved me as much as i love you..

the part that kills me the most is that your laughing and not caring while i'm crying and dying inside...

-Sharon June

the best wayy i can explain exactly how i feel right now besides this is the song by bruno mars...

i jusst hope i'm wrong...

Grenade-Bruno Mars

Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give
Should of known you was trouble from the first kiss, Had your eyes wide open -
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked, Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm numb Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had

And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh You’ d watch me burn down in flames You said you loved me you're a liar Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...
But darling I’ll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same.
No, you won’t do the same,
You wouldn’t do the same,
Ooh, you’ll never do the same,
No, no, no, no

so.done.for good this time.

here it goes again..

the text, and the calls. 

you're calling, wanting me to give you a second chance, fuck that! 

i have giving more then just one chance to prove yourself to me.

i'm not here so you can mess with my head.

i'm not here so you can play games with my heart.

i'm not her to be your toy!

stop acting like you were and still are my everything.

don't put your self up on a high pedestal.

yea, i might of feel in love with you, but now i hate you to the very core of my being.

all you do is lie, lie, lie and tell me this time it's going to be different, this time you miss me.

but see this time i'm not just going to believe every word you say.

i don't even want to give you another chance your words don't mean shit to me anymore.

yea, you use to know just how to make me cave, but not anymore. 

this time it's different, this time i know you're just the same prick you've always been!

so do us both a favor, and let me go, because you were never just a friend, and you were never a good boyfriend.

i want nothing to do with you.

i don't think you quite get it mister, i can't be friends with you no more.

like it's not that i can't it's that in all honesty  i don't want to, not even a little bit. 

so just go back to knowing that our friendship is over, and it's never gonna be repaired ever!

yea, i do forgive you, but i never said that i want you back in my life.

so realize that this time i mean it when i say...

GOODBYE. 

-Sharon June

perfection

she's beauty.

she's almost perfection.

i want to see those beautiful eyes of hers just one last time.

i never wanted to loose her, then again i never wanted to loose me.

she had the best touch, the cutest laugh, everything about her spread a smile across my heart.

her lips were soft, pink, and so very kissable...

she always picked on me, but it made me feel special like i knew i was liked by her...

i'm so dumb for loosing her, she absolutely meant so much to me.

she was becoming my best friend.

then that saturday happened.

when everything changed.

i never said anything about her...

but she'll never believe me.

she hates me..

and all i do is miss her each and every day. 

i want to change everything.

now my sweet, beautiful, perfection is gone

 i would do anything and everything just to make her see that i still care for her.

that she is my most precious dream... but more like a dream that just won't come true...

-Sharon June

my mask.

i smile 

i frown

i cry

i laugh

but i'm blank inside...

am i wearing some form of a mask?

i feel weird like dead inside.

i don't feel like i belong here anymore.

what is going on with me?

i started to discover what i wanted in life.

my goals, my dreams.

but now none of it matters anymore.

i just want to either drink all my pain away, or take all these pills and never wake up.

i'm not depressed.

i'm not lonely.

i'm not scared.

i'm not mad.

i'm not happy.

i'm just numb, so comfortable numb.

i don't know how to feel anymore, about anything or anyone.

so for now i wear this mask.

wishing i could change the past.

missing that happy girl i once knew.

i need to fix this, me...

i can't do this anymore.

i need to tear off this mask and face myself, and realize i'm better than this...

but how is the question i so desire dear in my heart.

-Sharon June.

fidding alice.

falling down

freaking out

wondering where i'm going

someone wake me up from this nightmare.

this place is like a dream the names are diffrent and people are mad.

tripping out when i'm perfectly sober.

spinning and turning,wanting to go home.

feeling like i've been here before.

just wsihing i could be home.

i need to find her.

i think she's locked away and needs help breaking free.

but where or what exactly is the key?

have i lost her, or have i lost myself?

someone wake me from this dream...before i start to rip apart at my seems.

unless... wait i think i'm fadding or maybe i'm just changing.

something isn't quit right....

i think this girl is gone, but will return as soon as she's found.

the key to finding her, is to stop looking and find myself. . .

-Sharon June