harder than he knows...

so... i was listening to this song today. 

and it makes me thinkk of exactly how i feel about my ex.

he wants to be with me, and i'm soo head over feet ferr him... but idk what to do... 

how do you trust someone that has done you wrong so many times... 

yea ya don't... so idk what to do...

i love him... beyond measurement. . .

i jusst am so afraid of being hurt... 

but i would do anything in the world ferr him. 

that is truly how much i love him... </3

Escape The Fate: Harder Then You Know

You said this could only get better. There's no rush, 'cause we have each other. You said this would last forever, But now I doubt if I was your only lover. Are we just lost in time? I wonder if your love's the same. Cause I'm not over you Baby, don't talk to me. I'm trying to let go Not loving you is harder then you know. Cause girl your driving me so crazy How can I miss you if you never would stay? If you need time I guess I'll go away. Inside me now there's only heartache and pain! So where's the fire? You've begun the rain. Are we just lost in time? I wonder if your love's the same Cause I'm not over you!  Baby, don't talk to me I'm trying to let go Not loving you is harder then you know, (Cause girl your driving me so crazy) And if you don't want me then I guess I'll have to go! Not loving you is harder then you know. Yeah! So I'll make the call, And I'll leave you today I'm gona miss you 'cause I love you baby Yeah, I'll make the call I'm leaving today Leaving always drives me crazy! Leaving always drives me crazy! Baby, don't talk to me I'm trying to let go. Not loving you is harder Then you know, Yeah Baby, don't talk to me I'm trying to let go (I'm trying to let go) Not loving you is harder Then you know, (Cause girl your driving me so crazy) And if you don't want me then I guess I'll have to go! (I guess I'll have to go) Not loving you is harder then you know (Girl your driving me so crazy) Baby, don't talk to me I'm trying to let go. Not loving you is harder, then you know, Girl your driving me so crazy.

 i bet when you read those lyrics you thought of that special someone that you love.. and has done you wrong... so what do you do from there... do you give them another chance... er do you walk away...

right now i feel like my heart is ripping at it's seems telling me to jusst hold on to him... because he loves me.. and i love him... and today in this fucked up world it's so hard to find that.... i'd be genuine to him... the question is would he be genuine to me....